A day off... bleh

I had the day off today. It was assesment day at school. Only freshman and juniors have to take the assesment test and since I'm a sophomore, I got the day off. Can't complain about that. The weather was really crappy today though. All last night and today there have been severe thunderstorms with tornado watches and warnings off and on.

I've been tired a lot lately. I feel like sleeping all the time. I think it's because I've been sad. I've really been missing Tony. I come home to an empty home every day and go to bed by myself every night. I've never been good at being alone. For a few days maybe...then I start to get lonely. I haven't felt like doing anything . I just want to sleep. Of course, the more time I spend being idle, the more I dwell on it, and the worse it gets. So... I make myself do homework and keep the house relatively clean. I look forward to visiting Tony, but I don't look forward to saying goodbye again. The worst thing about this kind of pain is that there is nothing I can do to make it go away. I can distract myself and ignore it...but it never goes away.